Monday, November 29, 2004

Thanksgiving...

Waiting for this day to come is a huge thing for millions of people becuase they love to eat and eat all day long and not be able to move for two days. For me personally, I don't really care about eating all day long. I am not the kind of person that just loves to eat all day long. The one thing that I really enjoy about Thanksgiving is being with my family that I don't really get to see all that much.

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Example Essay

Being able to say that I am involved with someone is a big thing, to me anyways. My boyfriend, Brendan that I have had for more than 3 years has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. I feel like we have been together since birth and now he is starting to feel like he is part of the family. He was even around before we started dating; we were best friends for 2 years before we started dating. He has been the most loving, comforting, funny person I could ever ask for in any person.

I can’t remember a time while dating that he hasn’t said “I love you, Kim.” Even when I get mad at him for something stupid and I tell him I don’t want to be with him anymore because of his out look on things that we don’t agree on when he leaves my house after that fight he will say “I love you and I am sorry if I have hurt your feelings in anyway.” I don’t know if many men can face the fact that they are wrong and bring themselves to say I am sorry.

When my parents would tell me that I couldn’t make it in life I would go to Brendan to see what he would say and I would always wait to hear the same things that my parents just told me moments ago. This was never the case; he would always tell me that I could do anything I put my heart into. I didn’t know if I wanted to go to college right after high school but Brendan was there to tell me that I could do it if I really wanted to do it and I would be able to go if I wanted to take a year off from school all together.

Often I come across a day that isn’t going to be good. I sometimes feel like I am the bearer of all bad news at times but when I come across those bad days Brendan is there to cheer me up. If I don’t think I can get up and go to school to face a few teachers that don’t seem to like me, Brendan is always telling me that I just need to pretend they aren’t my teachers and talk to them like you would any other person. To me I find that kind of humorous because there have been times where I have done this. I may not think it is funny when he tells me to do it but when I actually do it and then talk to him at the end of the day he is proud of me. He told me that he does this so he can see me smile at the end of the day.

I am just lucky that I have found this person at my young age and that the loving, caring, funny person happens to be the love of my life rather than one of my girl friends. If I am to ever be hurt by anything Brendan is there to pick me back up, put me on my feet and continue to go on with life.

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

The Search

After researching for a few hours on the internet I decided I had to get some other information that wasn't as boring as reading it on paper. I went back to my high school and I talked to my former teacher and she told me that I had to go talk to her friend Mike. Mike has been a Maine guide for 25 years and he would be my best resource for writing this paper without it being boring. I also went to the Department of Inland Fisheries and Wildlife to see if they could tell me anything about how the tests are administered and what was on them.

All of the information that I found on the internet was good stuff but it wasn't what I really needed. It was cut and dry, I wanted something that had personal experiences from Maine guides. I think that talking to Mike Dougherty was a good idea and if I never went back to my high school I don't think I would have a good paper.

The Future

Now that I have done all the research that I have had to do to write this paper I think I am on the right track to finding something new for me to do in my lifetime. I have learned so much about becomming a Maine guide and it is really interesting me. It is like a tunnel and I have been sucked into it. The beautiful woods around me is so fascinating and I don't think I could find any better way to enjoy it.

In the near future I am plan on becomming a guide. I think it would be something that is really going to be worth my while. I have a friend that is going to open a camp for adults and he wants some people to go with him through the process and become guides with him. So this spring I am going to be attending classes with him and a few other friends and become a guide.

Writing this paper has made me realize there is more to life than getting up everyday and driving to work and doing the same old shit from day to day.


Monday, November 01, 2004

Process Essay

Learning how to get ahead in life can be tricky. I had to teach myself all throughout highschool. I loved to be the teachers pet, because if you were you would be awarded with a decent grade. I don't feel that way when you want to become the official teachers assistant. My senior year I decided I wanted to become one of the official "teachers assistant" for my outdoor education class(O.E.). O.E. wasn't a normal class that most students took during their highschool career. It was similiar to a gym class but you didn't have to play the sports that you hated to do, instead we would go camping for a whole weekand, hike, ski and white water canoe. In order to do become a teachers assistant I had to do a lot of unecessary sucking up to the teacher. To become a teachers assistant (T.A.) you have to prove to the teacher that you are willing to accept the responsibilities involved, apply for the position and finally do your best even if you don't get the position.

After I finally decided I wanted to go for it I had to prove to myself and to my teacher that I could take on the responsibility to do it. When questions were asked in class I was the first to respond and when a volunteer was asked for I always raised my hand. I didn't do this because I wanted to be the teachers pet but because I wanted to reach this goal of becomming a T.A. and I actually really enjoyed the stuff we were learning. When we were taught the different strokes we had to use on the river I would often volunteer about getting up on a table in the front of the room and demonstrate the proper way to do whatever was asked for. For example, when we were taught the strokes that we need to know on the river when white water canoeing I would demonsrate how to do them or I would go around the class to help the students that didn't understand. I became a very willing person to learn about everything there was to know about that class.

When applying for this honorable position you probably think that I had to fill out some silly application that only had my name and grades on it, but in reality I had to write an essay of why I would be a good T.A.. This I thought was difficult because I don't like to look at myself and talk about why I am going to be the best at one particular thing. If I do this I feel like I have a big head. I finally got over the fear of having a "big head" and I sat myself down at my computer and wrote this essay. I thought it was pretty good even though I didn't like to write about myself. I had a few of my friends read it and see what they thought about it and they all came back to me with positive results.

I kind of knew that I was going to get this position from the start because my teacher is the one that told me that I would be a great T.A.. There are two teachers that taught the class and they both saw me grow to become a better student. When I first joined the class I was shy and didn't say much. Once I got to know more people in the class I became more outgoing and wanted to volunteer myself for the class activities that we did. I would go on all of the class trips and when we were out on a trip I would be the one to help with getting everything ready for the students and parents that were going to go on the trip.

Just to let you know, so I don't leave you hanging, I did get the position and fulfilled every part of being a good T.A. for one full year. Throughout that year I had the best time of my life and I must say that was the highest point in my high school career. Well there is one thing that I left out, my best friend is the daughter of my former teacher. I didn't have to do as much sucking up as it sounded but I did have to prove to her that I could do it and I did have to apply just like everyone else had to.

Halloween

Boy do I love Halloween. I love to see the little ones all dressed up walking up and down the streets picking up candy. Last night I was on my way home from work and I was very upset, I didn't see any kids on the side roads getting candy, maybe it was because I was in Brewer on my way out to Holden. Most of the kids tend to hit Bangor first and then if we get lucky they come out to Holden. This isn't very likely, we only had four trick-or-treaters, how depressing. I couldn't believe that was it and three of them were too old to be doing it but that is o.k. because they were my neighbors. I guess that when I go out looking for an apartment I am going to think about living in town (Bangor or Brewer) and maybe this will increase my chances of seeing the little ones all dressed up on Halloween.